- Left my religion and found new religious beliefs.
- I stopped working at the post office.
- Various issues with depression, anxiety, and so on.
- My wife and I opened our marriage. My wife and I each found relationships outside the marriage. Did I mention I am gay (yes, she knew before we got married, and no the arc introduction was mostly already planned)? My wife and I separated after being married for longer than is average. Now in a new relationship.
So yeah, a lot going on.
I have not wanted to say anything since I did not want to bother people, things were unresolved, and I did not want to get people’s hopes up as I was finally having the time to actually go back and edit my story. All chapters have now been edited and also have titles and quotes.
Hey all. Long time no talk.
Between work, writer’s block, and a few more things I have been away from my story much longer than I thought I would.
Obviously that sucks, and I know people are left waiting,
I am going to be going back and rereading my entire story in intimate detail to reacquaint myself with everything and sketch out all the plot elements so I do not accidentally drop a plot thread due to my long absence.
I would greatly appreciate any comments about the story, the plot, missing or confusing elements, as this is one of the times when I will actually be able to take in everything as a whole. That is a luxury I do not have too often, simply because it would bog me down if I was already moving full speed ahead.
Also please tell me what you are excited about, what you want to see. Authors like to be excited about their stories too, haha. And you might trigger an idea that becomes a paragraph or scene.
All of you that are following me and waiting eagerly, thank you for your patience.
I will never abandon this story, even if some diversions occur.
Thank you so much,
Essentially just whining. Let me put that out there. No reason to beat around the bush. Anyway, the last chapter I put up, and which is still locked for most, was reconstructed from a fairly terrible audio to text reconstruction. My work place is loud, as is the work I am doing. The next chapter is an even longer wall of text. So the next section is a massive wall of badly reconstructed text from me dictating a chapter while I was at work. It is going to take a very long time to make it properly understandable. So, hence the griping.
However, I did feel it fair to show what it looks like before I figure out what I really intended. It has already been cleaned up slightly, but I am dreading really diving into it:
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“There are beings besides man that have minds. And certainly various monsters, even without intellect, have a certain animal cunning. What then makes man enlightened? What raises him above the beasts?
It is his own spark of the divine. He may choose between order and chaos, to seek balance or any extreme. His nature is not fixed, but in fact molds to the demands of his own intent. That which he wills of himself, if he pursues it unrelentingly, will be. Monsters and animals are made. They are fixed. A man makes himself.”
-Hatere, Arch-Priest of the Order of Divine Intent Continue reading “Saga of the Soul Dungeon – 3.03 – The Vitre-uvian Man”
No doubt a few of you have wondered where I have been.
Simply put, I had a rather massive panic attack about three weeks ago, I am considering writing a blog about that, because I actually recorded what my thoughts were as it was happening. I mean that in the literal sense, I have a recording of me at work trying to deal with… everything. I managed to not break apart while I was at work, but finally collapsed after I got home. The intervening time has been dedicated to trying to get better and back to the point where I actually want to and am able to write.
About a week and a half ago I started getting better, but it has been an off and on process. However, I did manage to make myself write a chapter, because it is important to me on many levels, and I do feel some responsibility to my readers.
Love you all,
“Two possibilities exist: Either we are alone in the Universe or we are not. Both are equally terrifying.”
- Arthur C. Clarke
“And if a man should kill an Adar his life will be forfeit, as shall his fortune, and so also shall be one hundredth part of the wealth of the kingdom that had claim upon him.”
- The Adaran Concord
Various human myths place the Adar as creations of balance or order. Depending upon the myth this can be as a counter to the chaos of humanity or as a point of balance between dungeons and mankind. A few minor myths place the Adar as creature of chaos, or as the spawn of chaos, but these are largely ignored. The Adar’s mindset is often alien, but it is organized.
Among the many pieces of knowledge unknown about the Adar, is if the Adar have a mythology of their own creation. Their beliefs are known to a certain extent by the envoys they send out into the world, but much is gleaned in this way by inference and very little by being told directly.
The Adar are, as a whole, reclusive and secretive. Their lives are hidden from sight in enclaves isolated from humanity and the rest of the world. Even at dungeons that are shared between the Adar and other nations, the Adar keep themselves physically isolated. While a great many things are speculated upon there are a few things known for certain.
The Adaran females never appear to outsiders or leave their enclaves. Exactly what role they serve in Adaran society is unknown. Various theories run rampant, of which a few shall be mentioned here: That their females mate with the males like plants and never need to interact. That their females are rooted to the spot like plants, or simply are massive plants. That their society is run by the females and they would consider it sacrilege to be seen by humans. All of this speculation aside, it is useless to say anything when there is no evidence. And while we may know nothing of the Adaran females, there are certainly enough popular works of romantic literature featuring them to suggest that humankind is happy enough to provide their own answers to the mystery.
The Adar hold dungeons to be sacred ground. Some dungeons appear to be more suited for the Adar than others. What makes a dungeon suitable to the Adar is unknown, though the dungeons are usually more developed than the average new dungeon. However, dungeons with a great many floors have been passed over.
Almost every human nation has an agreement the Adar for their services. The Adar agree to assist in pacifying any dungeons in the human’s territory, help locate new ones, and assist with their exploration. In exchange the Adar may choose to establish an envoy at any dungeon of their choosing at any time. This almost always occurs when a newly found dungeon is being explored.
Those Adar which are sent from their enclaves as envoys are all male, homosexual, and are able to sense when a new dungeon forms. Whether these Adar are outcasts or part of a special class within their society are just as unknown. Needless to say, a lessor, though still vociferous, number of authors have delighted themselves with endless speculation.
“And Otga, jealous of her brother’s light, stole a piece unto herself. Jealously she held it close to her body and treasured it, but the chaos of her grasp infected the light and it began to consume all, and thus fire entered the world.”
- Myths of Creation: Folktales and Folklore
“All things are artificial, for nature is the art of God.”
- Thomas Brown
It is commonly acknowledged by the major religions that Yamash, the hermaphrodite God of balance, was the first of the gods to come into existence. The exact nature of his creation varies from account to account and religion to religion. The disparities are sufficiently varied that no uniform account can be created, though uniform accounts of his nature can. Some religions say he was born as a counterpoint to nothingness, from the need of the great and infinite void to be filled. Others claim that he has existed forever, or that he created himself. Still more insist that he was co-created with the universe. The origins of Shurum, God of order, and Otga, goddess of chaos, are equally convoluted.
Interestingly, accounts of the time of their and humankind’s creation share a particular phrase in multiple texts. This phrase, depending upon the source and translation, can read different ways. In certain sources Yamash covered himself in darkness when his partner Bynzug died, and Bynzug split apart to create Shurum and Otga. Other sources say his face was “shadowed with grief” when Shurum and Otga, his children in this account, fought over dominion of the universe. Different accounts claim he “hid his face in darkness,” in grief over the fall of humanity.
A third category of accounts diverges. Before the shadow, comes light. In some cases this is the birth of Shurum, followed by the darkness of Otga’s birth. Yet another account speaks of “celestial fire” which Yamash used to drive mankind from paradise after they had proved unfit stewards, and they found their new home filled with blessed darkness. A different text speaks of “the fires of creation,” used to make the world, which Yamash dimmed afterward to spare mankind destruction.
Regardless, there are a few consistencies which define the gods of the world.
Yamash is always the God of balance, and his dominion is the night, where he shows his glorified face. Unlike the other gods his position is eternal and unchanging, and though his face is bright it is not blinding, nor is it changeable like Otga. Though he rules the night, he has charged Otga and Shurum to maintain the balance of day.
Shurum is the God of order. He is the God of light, ice, and reason and his face is the sun. He provides light, but he is cold and distant, unless moved by the passion of his counterpoint.
Otga is the goddess of chaos. She shares the day with Shurum and is both fire and darkness. She represents passion and change, but is inherently unstable. Her passion would ignite the whole world, save that Shurum withdraws from her presence. Her face is the celestial maw.
Wow! I am so sorry for the delay. Between work and mental health issues there was no way I was up to anything. However, don’t fret, I have no intention of abandoning this fic. We finally got some more help at work. Just to put it in perspective they hired three people that we were short. There were three of us doing the work of six. Of course we promptly had one of the new people quit when they realized the job entailed actual work. However, it is still a major improvement because now I get two days off most weeks instead of having only one day off a week since March.
Anyhow, none of you came for my rant/excuses/work madness, so without further ado I am posting the next chapter.
I am A.J. Foxmoor. I have been writing on various projects for some time, but I have decided I finally want to bring some of my craft out into the world. I am a major fan of science fiction, fantasy, and the amazing ways that they can evoke wonder. I hope that anyone who reads my current works of fiction thoroughly enjoys them.
As to the type and variety of work that I do, my tastes and ideas are varied. Currently I have ideas for several novels in a science fiction future earth as we are encountering aliens and dealing with AI. I have 2 litRPG novels partially written. I also have a modern take on superheros in an isolated community, which will eventually look at the whole world, is my next planned project. I have a fantasy series rattling around in my head that deals with magic that is unstable and dangerous by its nature. Another series examines a magical system where symbolism and history matter in spell casting. These are just a few samples of what is rattling around in my head.
Currently I work at the USPS which is simultaneously the best and worst of everything you hear about government jobs. Due to time constraints I am only able to promise a release of a chapter once per week. For the moment I am trying to make that release be for the Saga of the Soul Dungeon and have two months worth of chapters cued up that I just need to edit before each release. Chapters posted will always be a minimum of 2000 words, or I will release more than one.
Hopefully I can transition to being a full time writer.
Thank you for joining me on the ride,